Ups and Downs of Autism

So, today starts off great!! Delaney is throwing a ball back and forth with me. Someone from Rescare came and helped me apply for Medicaid. I'm beyond excited that we would qualify based on her diagnoses (and not finances) and that they would cover ABA (if we can find a therapist that takes medicaid). It's going to be a pain in the arse to apply but sounds worth it. We also get 80 hours every 6 months of respite. YAHOO! THEN, all heck broke lose. Her Speech Therapist came. Delaney just doesn't like to work with the therapists. She screamed and threw a complete fit the whole time. It was awful. She just wanted me. Then she threw another fit refusing the fish oil/vitamin mix. So, I just feel like firing all of the therapists, move to Texas, throw her in a pool and do the therapy myself. Why do we have to put these kids through suffering just to get them progress? I really struggle with it all. Oh, and then just when I'm down in the dumps, she turns her head and looks at her brother when he walks in from school. Of course, he has to say that she's never done that before and he was happy. Up and Down.